i'm not writing much today just this:

apparently dr lyons has been reading this. he said it was in dr favero's instructions that he do so. he talked with me about all the backstory and was surprisingly supportive. he said he was drug dealing sack of shit prior to cleaning up and going to med school. he also mentioned that he's actually 44, not in his 30s at all.

finally, he told me that it would be unprofessional of him to even mention what i had wrote about him as long as he was my physician. i wasn't sure if that was a hint or not but once the session was over i asked him if he could say anything now, since he was officially not my doctor anymore.

he said he was terribly flattered and if wasn't absolutely sure it would get him in trouble he might even act upon it. but that he wasn't going to jeopardize anything. very diappointing. i was hoping he would just pull out his cock and make me blow him or maybe fuck me all over dr favero's office. maybe bend me over the desk the way i had imagined dr favero doing it... but no.

oh, well. plenty to think about tonight.

and AGAIN no mail guy. i'm starting to think he quit. if he doesn't come back soon i may do something drastic and jump Hannah bones.